Should I do it anyway? Force it? Posting on my new blog every day is a good goal, but some days my brain isn’t functioning well enough to string two sentences together. I don’t want to write crap, and I don’t want to recycle old material that was written years ago, or even months ago. This blog is for now. It’s my way of expressing where I am now, what I’m going through now, this season of my life now. Sure, I’ll have references to the past for context. I didn’t get what I wanted in life, and that loss can leave me feeling bitter and sour at times. I still often wonder if there’s anything I can do now to get myself from here to there, to attain the life I’ve always wanted in the second half of my journey since I somehow missed the mark with every attempt over the past thirty years. I don’t want to get my hopes up, but I think I’ve finally figured out where I keep going wrong. Here! There is no “there” to get to. No matter where I go, no matter what I do, I’m always only ever here. If I want to experience the life of my dreams, I need to invite it and allow it into the present moment. Now is the time to sing and dance and write and play. If I don’t do it now, I never will. Here is the place and the time to live my dreams because now is only ever in this moment, and here is the only time I ever have.