Why not me? As I watched introduction videos for a class I’m auditing at my alma mater, I began to wonder why these professors were hired at this particular institution. One actually helped found the school, and the other has been teaching there for over a decade. They each went straight to seminary from high school. They each have a PhD from a respected educational establishment. They also pair well together as a straight guy-funny guy combo, even though the “straight guy” is female. There’s nothing stopping me from accomplishing the goals I have for my life. I could teach at a seminary once I finish my doctorate. I could write a book. I could work at any number of jobs in full-time ministry. My massive inferiority complex is really the only thing getting in the way; that and my laundry list of physical and mental disorders. I feel so much pressure to accomplish something with my life, to prove that I’m not a waste of space, to produce more than I consume, to add value to the world. Why is it so hard to simply relax and enjoy myself? The idol of progress is never satisfied.