My life is not going to be all sunshine and rainbows just because I decide to trust a Higher Power. My past has been a raging shitstorm because I was built with faulty wiring. I need an electrician to rip all of the old crap our and replace it with new circuitry because I obviously don’t know what the heck I’m doing. I’m tired of bumbling around in the dark because my power source is cut off from my light source by kinks and fraying. I’m tired of getting burned by exposed wires that lack adequate sheathing for protection. I have to allow my walls to be broken down for all of the hazardous materials to get dug out, which leaves me feeling vulnerable and exposed. But I have to risk this phase of the deconstruction process or nothing is ever going to change.